Weak and Selfish Sinner

Weak and selfish is this sinner’s soul
My heart is weary and quickly turns to black
I look up to you when I’m falling lowly
My eyes search for the one to save me
I fight myself deep inside
You are always there, I know this
But my evil desires drown you out
Why is my heart so dark and lonely?
Release me from these killing chains
My lazy mind can’t focus on what is real
The imitating virus spreads in me the lies
My mind fills with wrong thoughts and intentions
This part in me cries out to the one who saves
But this damning lie fills me till I overflow
Part of me wants to end it and give in to the deceiver
Death seems so restful, Oh the lie!
Don’t drown in the sea of empty faces
Keep looking and asking, why Lord, why?
I hate the way I feel
I know the truth yet allow myself to drown
Filled up with empty thoughts of death
Weak and selfish is this sinner’s soul

O God, save me from myself!