My trip to Hell and Heaven

And I saw my own face…frozen in heaven
And dark bodies floating in darkness, swimming in a pool of sin and death
Imprisoned with shackles of loneliness  
I’m trying to climb closer to the light, but my eyes saw me… frozen in heaven
Burst forth sounds of utter terror
Looking upward feeling unconscious
Reaching out my hand lashed with transgressions
Trying to look for my savior
Where in this nest of flesh is he?
Falling farther into the abyss of nothingness
My star has fallen, burst to dust, shattered silence resounds
My empty head fills with tears of remorse
What or where am I?
Alive, yet death is all around
The shadows tear at my skin
Brightness starts to shine through the terror
Where is this light coming from?
It has been so long since I’ve seen the light
It burst through the darkness
The brightness reaches out for me
I’m frightened beyond all belief
What could be worse than this place I’m in?
I reach for it with my blood crusted hand
“Fear not, my love!” I hear
My body feels like every bone has been crushed
My heart slows and my mind sees through the brilliance
My savior hasn’t forgotten me
In the blink of an eye, my body is renewed
Better than it ever was
All the blood has been washed away
The brightness slowly sits me down on a sea of what feels like feathers
But looks like grass
I can taste honey
Above me is a tree full of fruit
I’m without words
He walks to me and helps me up
Wiping the tears from my eyes
“Nina, my good and faithful servant, you are home”
Im forever frozen in heaven